灵感

到现在,我还没有搞定散文。
完成了一半,可是我觉得挺生硬的。也没有太多时间去完成。><
啊~
可是,脑子里有一些灵感,关于小说的。
其实我一直在搜集灵感,然后写成一篇小说,再放上popo网站。
可是那会用很久的时间吧。
毕竟我不是常常上网,也有学业要兼顾。
那个灵感是,故事的一开始,女生上公车,到了下一站,某男生坐在正对面,到了十一站,两人下车,开始了很多交集。
这不是爱情小说,但也不排除可能性。因为我还在想有更特别更有意义的情节,并不是纯爱情。
我会把身边某些人的一些外貌、特征或性格融入故事里的角色。

p/s:最近梦想买一只适合又喜欢的手表,陪我度过每一秒。尤其是紫色的。
存钱+想办法赚钱。

sweet 18

life goes fast.
i am 18,start from yesterday, 10 june 2011.
when the past, friends helped me settle activities or else and gave me surprise.
this time,i invited my dear buddies .
i made it into 2 sessions.
although there wasn't all attend,but actually i felt it's ok, since i just want to make it simple,small,funny and fabulous gathering/party.

thanks for ah loke for waiting patiently there.we talked a lot on the journey to s'ban since we long time no see.
around 11am++,we all gathered in mcdonald.
haha~actually i dislike to eat fast food but for this time,i made an exception.
we ordered mcd lunch meals.
coincidently, a 25th xuedi was having meal there.he was wearing msia xueji camp T-shirt but he didnt notice us at all.
funny that kokchen forced him to say happy birthday to me.
"xuejie,happy birthday to u."junior yong xuan said.
"ha,i don't recognise u at all."me act cool.
all were laughing like hell.
"haha, just kidding,thanks .junior.u can go back to continue with your meal alrdy."
"oh,thanks xuejie."
omg......the situition was a bit weird.wahaha~

around 2pm,we went to s'ban mount royal.
in fact, i damn love natural. so i have a little wish that is celebrating bday in the natural.
thanks for all your cooperation and u all made up my little wish..lol.
But Rocky said,"huh?mount royal?you wanna go there to feed mosquitoes?"
He seems like quite dislike there.haha.but at last,he also went with us. thanks.
that was first time i stay there ,when the past ,i just always went through there.
we shot sendiri in the mount royal and had fun there.
i didnt thk that they would buy a cake for me.
that is a delicious chocolate cake.
since we all didnt have lighter,so i 'blown' the candles which are without flame.How's special like this. haha.
before blowing the candles, 23 asked me to wish 10 hopes for each of them and myself.
my hopes for every of them made they laugh but importantly,i wanna u all live well,peacefully,pleasantly and safely.
actually,i planned to back home around 3pm but i didnt suppose that we got crazy and high and had fun till 5.30pm.

around 4pm,we went back to T1 to meet huiping and mikayo.
after passing sban parade,we need to walk across the road.
zhixian,xiaomeng,kokchen and zhenloke walked across the road successfully.
but for girls,we retracted our legs when we saw the cars are near.haha~
then,we have to wait again and the opposite site, zhixian took out his camera and captured us across the road.
the drivers may feel strange on us.wahaha~
after reached t1,we went to our old place that is Easy Way.
it was funny that xiaomeng said"ahh..i long time don't drink water already~"
hoho,he was bombastic and seem like just came back from desert.haha.
around 5.30pm,we brought the not willing mood to dismiss.
we already promised that next time must go to visit malacca together in the holidays.
Thanks,peyen,peiling,xiaomeng,kokchen,xueting,hyee,zhixian,zhenloke,mikayo,huiping,rocky.

i rushed back to go kfc at night.
guan han's swift car is damn nice,but white one i think more nice.haha~
thanks for his sending.
gladful that dear fellows attended to the "heihei romantic party" in the black fabulous Friday.
they are stalie,caveun,aaron,zhihan,chrisliang,kaiwen,siowping,guanhan,addy,waiming,huiwei,joney,kahkheng,jamice,siangyi.
although some of them confirmed me they would attend but absent at last, i also felt appreciated with them.they are my dear buddies often.
some of them cnt attend,but please rmb u are always be remembered in my heart.
maybe we long time no meet each other,we all talked enjoyably with each other.
around 9.30pm ,we went to romantic place.
on 10.30pm,we just opened the cake and cut.
there was two fruit cake.
one is bought by guanhan and other is by my parents.it was coincidence.
so,i decided to cut guanhan's 'gift'.
and we were singing the birthday songs in the darkness.
i cnt cut the cake perfectly and chrisliang helped me to do it.
they dislike my cut cake due to bad look but chrisliang's.lol.is ok.
jamice shared her life in matrix school with us and whine about it.
stalie also shared us the she just moved to nilai uc frm matrix in perlis .
we had a lot of fun throughout the romantic night.
Ultimately,thanks so much,dear fellows and the gift.
and thanks for the wishes from friends which are via facebook and sms and from family.

i will be more mature mentally.
i will be more confident and more daring as time goes.
with bringing your all wishes,i must go well,happily,peacefully and successfully in life.
thank you, and thanks you. muack.
aza aza fighting ,Yan. from now! ^^

失败与梦想

失败了。
第一次用三个月的时间泡制的小说落选了。
没关系。
早就预料到。
那儿只不过有两个奖项。
我当时也只不过想开始参加各项文学创作比赛
朝我的梦想前进。
想想,
假如我害怕失败,从来不参加比赛、投稿,
我就注定不会有梦想实现的一天。

我的文笔还生涩,欠佳人生经验。
所以,当然我酝酿着我的人生经验想象力
不会放弃!

p/s * 本人最近投稿了一篇散文参赛。

另外,今天脑子里又冒起了一个念头,其实这念头已埋藏心里已久,终于在2011年6月5号,我决定让它兑现
否则我一直“口上谈兵”,蹉跎我的宝贵光阴。哈哈~(讲得有一点夸张><)

六月天

life goes fast.
it had been June.
my June.
sigh.
as i have been growing up, i found that each month has around 30 days,it isn't enough.
one week has 7 days only, it isn't enough.
1 day has 24 hours only,it isn't enough.
ahhhhh.
anyhow i mutter about it,
the fact is life goes fast.
2011 leaves half.
please appreciate the golden time.

Yesterday night i went for a wedding with grandma.
sitting beside me is an auntie who always drink.
i got shocked she didn't get drunk for many cup of red wine and beer.
so i asked her: "auntie,how don't u get drunk even many cup of wine and beer?"
she smiled and answer me even teached me the way to not get drunk is must let your stomach fill a bit before drink.

then, we started to talk happily.
she told me that she just back from UK and France last month.
she emphasized that UK's environment is great but France's safety is freakly bad.
oh, in my mind, my dream travel place is romantic and artistic place,France.
although that, i still dream to go travel in france a day .
her sharing is interesting.
she often encourages me to go to UK.

When the wedding was going to end,we said goodbye to each other.
ohh,she and her husband are so cute and sweet,and my grandma said they were having their honeymoon again in UK last month.
how do i say that? because her husband showed me his cute smile and pattern and said :"hello! byebye!"
haha~
nice to meet the auntie,an positive-minded auntie.

Before this, i am a cool girl and dislike to be initiative to talk with strangers.
but since this year, i had changed.i glad for ownself about this.
it is because it give me a lot of fun and surprise.

p/s: 1 week..countdown..

人生总有第二次

啊~
又要面对你了!
还有准准一个星期。
幸好老师能安排我在这两星期的暑假里。
想到你,就要想到一个金句来鼓励自己:
你可以被困难打倒,但不能被困难打败!

这次,心里要更平静
我不要像上一次一样。
我不想把你当成我一生的阴影。
你只不过是人生中那么小小的困难。
我感到羞愧,怎么输给了你!!
所以,
这一次!
我一定要打败你!!
p/s:别聪明反被聪明误,变通,活在当下,掌握自己在做什么。