M.T.B (2011 Hols)

Harry Potter 7 (part 1)
夏日乐悠悠
Shark Night
那些年,我们一起追的女孩
Hannah Montana
Little Focker
Another Cinderella Story
Bedtime Stories
大英雄,小男人
Guliver's Travels
C+侦探
B+侦探
Enchanted
Slumdog Millionaire (the Indian movie i have ever watched)
Nasi Lemak 2.0
文雀
Mission impossible :Ghost Protocol
Alvin and the Chipmunks 3
Atonement
听说
The Candidate (the first Russian Movie i have ever watched)

tv shows:法政先锋3,荃加福禄寿探案

books: My Memory Keeper's Daughter (in progress), FBI Body language, NLP,怪诞心理学(in progress)

Fuyoh, i have broke the movies record currently compared with last long holidays!
the movies products are by USA, England, Taiwan, HongKong, India, Malaysia.
In a conclusion,The theme of 2011 holidays is 'movie'.haha~

我一直以来很不希望人家点到我的伤心穴。
可能是双子座的性格吧!我很不喜欢人家看到我流眼泪。更讨厌人家问那句:“你为什么哭?"
很令人讨厌你知道吗?因为这句话对我来说很杀伤力,原本停止了的眼泪又会不禁地夺眶而出。

我其实讨厌哭。我讨厌那种抽泣又辛苦的感觉。
一直以来,有什么压力,我都不想跟人家说。虽然说会舒服一些,但还是于事无补。
我选择独自承受就好,也因为我不喜欢人家看到我流泪。

那些压力有的是存在很久,碰上突然发生的棘手烦恼时,就会一次爆发。
我知道身边很多朋友都会很乐意当我的听众。但我从来都选择自己接受就好。
而我的想法是,这点还有一个很大的好处。不和人家重提伤心事也是转移焦点的好方法。久了就会淡忘了。

今天早上,受她的影响,心情也变动。不是第一次了。姐说”怎么一起来就脾气这样不好?“
我顿时察觉。
好久之后,终究在人面前暴露了我的脆弱。
长期活在这样的环境心情能不糟吗?
我每天在想,你何时能信奉耶酥,让耶酥改变你习惯的急躁?
你不知道你这样间接影响到我们全部。你不知道。
舅舅说,这急不来,时机会到。
这里的教堂不像新山那里这么活跃。
去哪里的时候,你每一次都在紧张和担心家事,你就先放下,享受当下好吗?
我真的不动摇怎样去帮你,改变你的死板想法。
所以我说,习惯是令人可怕的东西。它会间接把你塑造成一个怎样的人。

我一直尽量不写伤心的事,因为我不希望以后回顾以前写过的故事和分享,不想记得那些勾起我伤心回忆的事。
但这次还是没办法,忍不住想用这管道抒发出来。
我渐渐选择睁一只眼闭一只眼。
做我喜欢的事来‘麻醉’,或许乐观地说,转移焦点。

新的一年快来了。
说天天都快乐好像很假。
虽然对她又爱又恨。
我还是希望她健康,大家健康平安。

内疚一生

相信他任凭眼泪都流干了,折腾他的内疚也不会就此消失不见;再多的诚恳致歉,也抹不去他心中的惭愧。一瞬间,他痛失了四个朝夕相伴的好朋友,而且是自己亲手造成的,他能不愧疚吗?

他虽是年纪轻轻的肇祸司机,但这次的意外也不是他预料到的,不是他希望的。据当事人的说法,当天回家的路上,他为了闪避一辆迎面而来的车而撞向路边的铁杆。

站在他的立场,我可以想象当下的“我”虽是幸存了下来,但朋友们却由“我”一手段送他们。那一刻,觉得自己很残忍,对自己充满悔恨。自己就像杀手一样,一个不小心的杀手。

站在亡友的灵前,他不断地忏悔。对着亡友们的父母,更是跪下来,除了道歉,还有泣不成声。

从报章上的图片和字里行间,我都深深感受到了那种内疚的痛苦。也许说这次车祸不仅给他下了重重的教训,还要他记住那永远相伴的歉疚。

即使政府一直提倡市民小心驾驶,但从没教育人民驾车时要提高应变能力,而导致一时慌乱的地步。即使国民尽好本分,不超车不割车、遵守交通规则等,还是会酿成车祸。问题在哪呢?是无所不在的意外。要避免这隐身杀手,就要加强自身的危机意识,提升个人的机警度。

希望这则悲剧新闻能给每一个人带来宝贵的一课。

p/s : 突然灵感驾到,写了一篇像中学生写的作文。因为今天看到一则新闻,心里莫名的感触。哈哈,真的超久没提笔了,为了尝试投去《星云》。哈哈~ 顺道写下我对这则新闻的感想。

cloudy day

cloudy day,
please go away.
u really can affect people's mood.
and like usual ,
i passed the days normally.
a bit boring.
however, i don't mean to waste my time.
well, i watch the movies which i had desired to watch but havn't watch,
such as You Are the Apple of My Eye, Another Cinderella Story, Bedtime Stories, Gulliver's Travels, C+ detective, B+ detective, Petaling Street Warriors and some HongKong tv show.
and again, In Time for second time.

My holidays are about movies... haha~

Xmas is coming, 2012 is around the corner.
I am thinking to plan my new year.
this time, i do not know how will i pass the xmas and new year eve.
i rmb last christmas, i passed with a gang of secondary school classmates in a graduation trip.
in Cameron Highlands, we put on the xmas hat.
i have kept it well still.
i don't make sure whether this year can put on it again, or like normal days.

anyway, appreciated all i have or don't have.

one year have not sing karaoke. what a big record!
haha

cut ...

12月13日,
又回到前几个月陪姐姐来换个发型的Zex salon。
我老早想剪短我的三千发丝,迎接新的一年,原本打算回芙蓉那从小到大都去的salon,因为这里的很贵啦!
“不要后悔哦!KL剪的发型就是很不同的,不要的话不要后悔哦!”姐姐不停‘怂恿’我。
终于,过后的过后,我终于被“打败”,但是“输”的很值得没有悔意。哈哈!
这是我第一次在别的地方剪头发呢!还是觉得贵呐!不过也蛮值得,好的地方就有好的技术
这一次的发型从我的长发剪去了大约20公分,感觉很清爽,很有个性,也很莫名地给了我小小自信。
洗头发的时候舒服透了!强而有力的按摩让我顿时放松。我闭上眼睛,感觉和享受那份力度和舒适。后来我姐说“我还以为你睡着了呢!”哈哈~
还有,这是我第一次让男理发师碰我的头发!哈哈!从小到大,都是给女理发师处理我的发丝。有点别扭的感觉啊!不过大地方都是男hair stylist,不足为奇。

让秀发泡完温泉后,接下来,换另一名理发师接手。
我脱下了眼镜,看着眼前模糊的理发师,告诉他我要的发型和感觉。
“你要剪怎么样的?”
“我要像我姐那样的,不过再短一些,前面刘海留长。”我比了比我要的长度。
“啊?这么短阿?”
“是啊!就中长发啦!”
“噢~长发久了想换一下新面貌对吗?”
“嗯!”

接着是飞短流长的时刻。
“你们是姐妹吗?”理发师突然问我。
“嗯。”
“谁最大?”
我指了指坐我旁边的姐姐。
“她看起来最小耶!”
什么嘛?说我最成熟的那个?可能是因为他们都剪成刘海而我留长而看起来成熟吧!
哈哈,可是我姐姐没听到他的赞美。后来我才对她说,她飘飘然呢!
“谢谢。”我有点哭笑不得。
“你没戴眼镜真是很美啊!”
废话,每个人都是如此的嘛!哈哈!
做了短发女鬼至少有一小时吧!我看到眼前朦胧但全新的自己。
好喜欢向内curve的中长发。呵呵~

常听人说男理发师反而比女理发师的手法更温柔。
在昨天之前,我一直认为男生力气比较大,哪里会比较温柔呢!
结果昨天,我真的体会到。的确很温柔,完全很自在。哈哈!
谢谢我的理发师。

临走前,姐问我"呃,要跟我们今天的理发师拍照吗?”
原本姐姐指定由老板帮我们剪,但老板很迟才来,所以我们都给他(刚刚我提到的)剪。
我马上拒绝,因为不好意思嘛!
其实我早就想过要和他合照,毕竟感谢他让我有有生以来没试过的发型。
有一点遗憾,哈哈~

下一次有机会回去那儿剪的话,再看他还有没有在吧!
其实我不是很清楚他的样貌,在我记忆里已经有一点模糊了。呵呵!

那天过后,好满意的发型,加上另一个女理发师的赞美,心情蛮不错啊!哈哈~
晚餐还挑战了自己,因为他们要来一个麻辣晚餐(马来餐),而我可以说是第一次在mamak吃“马来大餐”吧!连姐夫都说我“bendung和telur bistik都不知道,可见你很少吃马来餐。”的确,我不喜欢太辣的感觉,好不好!呵呵~

就快,2012要来临了!
是时候准备迎接它了! 而我做了第一件要做的事!
接下来要拿出一张纸,写下新年新希望了(想着ing)
啊~人生就是不断的奋斗!

Hebe!

oh my goodness.
My dear Hebe is coming. Tomorrow!
well, i actually hope SHE's autography concert.
luckily,too, Hebe ,this time, represents herself, My Love album,coming to have some events.
The event tomorrow is Christmas party, and the venue is my college.
oh no, i won't let the chance go.
Although, pardon me, i didn't buy the album .
i have been waiting this 'big chance' almost within a few weeks.
u know, i always imagine the day, which is tomorrow,first time i see your real person.
i should shout your nice name.
i imagine i write a letter to u,pass it by ownself to u, i ask you to sign your name on my hand.
how wish Selina and Ella be your guests on that day.
then that will be perfect. haha~
Nevertheless, seeing u already make me content.
In u trio, you are the one i love the most.
your voice is awesome~ Selina's is damn sweet, Ella's is super cool.
u trio' voice mixes up, should make up a very powerful perfect song.
i never ever forget, your first song which attracts me is 'you are always on my mind'.
i am touching by your eternal fellowship, used to.
your songs accompany my teenage ages.
i saw from press that SHE 's new album will be released on the end of next year.Good!

Hebe, extremely blissful to meet u tomorrow.
Though i don't have VIP ticket, i have the oppurtunity to see you in a complex and enjoy in your beautiful voice, it's everything.

At last, i didn't write the letter because i found it silly.well.and i don't think u will remember me this small fan which love u from 8 till now, perhaps.

i can't wait now! u don't know how much i expected. XD laugh out loud.finally,now is 10 dec.
countdown.......

那些年之感想

哈哈~
很多画面让我会心一笑
柯腾的年代是张雨生的年代,
差不远,我是张惠妹的年代。而我一直很喜欢一首歌《我最深爱的人》,就是这两位大牌经典合唱的。也因为这首歌,才发现一把永垂不朽的好声音。推荐另一首张雨生的《大海》。
回来回来,哈哈!
那些年》这部电影,引起我心中的涟漪,还有很多共鸣。

沈佳宜:“你办搏斗赛有何意义?”
柯腾:“不是什么事情都要学习到才能做的嘛!高兴就好啊……”
沈:“你的意义就是让自己受重伤吗?”

哇,对我来说,我也是一向来抱着和沈一样的想法。没有意义的东西,干嘛要去做呢?没意思阿!即使令你开心,那也不过是短暂的。怎比得上你领悟到一些东西,愉快和受用一辈子呢?做每件事情,要学习或领悟到一些东西,才是有意义。

青春时期的沈常常一脸凶凶,被柯腾说为“假正经”。哈哈~

我也发现到,中小学时期,我也一直很凶(相信曾经坐我旁边的男生或一些男同学),也像沈一样,针对男生而已。其实那不过是一种保护色,我现在渐渐“温柔”了。哈哈~
说话尖利也是一种保护色,可能我伤害过很多人,我知道。
沈一次又一次地骂柯腾“幼稚!”哈哈~我也想到我也说过不少人幼稚。我本身也是,还有很多要学习。
所以思想成熟的人,是我崇拜的。

沈说:“常听别人说阿,最好的就是暧昧期”

何尝不是呢?男生都是追到了就不会像当初那样啦!就淡掉了。

另外,沈说
“我不是瞧不起成绩差的学生,我只是瞧不起那些不读书的人还瞧不起成绩好的学生”
这句话!!我想对那些自认不会读书的人。你们没有心,不代表我们骄傲。以前向来在好班,精英班可能给人的刻板印象就是骄傲吧!我们是热爱学习的一分子,可能加一点怕输,因为现代考试制的教育,竞争力就是推动力。你们呢?只会说我不是读书的料!精英班的人都是看扁人的。
错!我们没瞧不起差班生,只是瞧不起不肯努力还搞事的废材。
你们都是有无限潜能的,只是你们不要好好珍惜和磨练,没什么!过后找工算了。
在我的字典来,每个人都是可以读的,如果你没有心,那就不用说了。
当然,成绩好不是全部。只是,你比会读书的人能心智上幼稚得多。那种滥用知识来为非作歹(聪明反被聪明误)的人就甭说啦!

昨天终于看了这部电影,但不知道究竟沈在孔明灯上写了什么。
为何柯腾在家里要光着身子走来走去啊?我不信现实中的柯腾真的这样吧?相信这是为了制造效果。但未免有点不切实际了。
柯腾的大学室友"猛男"超恶心的!哈哈~
还有,勃起的“呵呵呵”笑声很经典!
突兀的是突然来个搏斗赛,没连接性的感觉。不过九把刀说过这是为了电影好看。有吗?有吧!
哈哈~接近尾声的一幕,可怜的新郎被柯腾狼吻!超好笑+怪怪的感觉。
梦幻的那一幕,你知道我说那一部分吧?
我把它称为“柯沈的永恒之吻”,完美绝配啦!
虽然结局不是在一起,就算是幻想的也好,那一刻真是永恒了。

回忆。难忘。青春。感动。永恒。

虽然没有这样轰轰烈烈的青春中学生涯,倒还有一些共鸣,泛起我无限的感动和珍贵的回忆。
谢谢!那些年! 谢谢!青春!

想……

赶在2011年最后的十一月天,写上给十一月最后的博文。


11月19日,和姐姐去逛书香。
嗒嗒~
我后面的是流动书展啦!第一次在书展里看到这样的东东。一个罗里摆在室内。哈哈~
手上的是令人难忘的抹茶+绿茶冰淇淋。
以下是我说的战利品啦!
左边的阅完了,右边的在progress,但这本要花好久的时间消化+研究,蛮厚蛮充实的内容。
另外,同步的还有这一本。第一次阅读novel。
啊~好不容易看了50页。

我希望假期可以去马六甲,看来也没什么机会了。
但可能十二月秒可以去新加坡和亲戚庆祝圣诞节。好快,去年十二月去sentosa证明一年快要过去了。我也希望可以去教会庆祝。还记得2007那年……

我也很想趁假期赚点零用钱,可是时间似乎不够,一个月……

上次在书展看到福尔摩斯的书,刚好那时候都在看《法政先锋3》受mandy的角色影响,对它很有兴趣。若时间允许,我一定好好研究!刚好它的电影将会在十二月上映,但我相信一定不如书好看。

我打算投稿去星洲副刊《星云》。有稿费吗?呵呵~就算没有。我也一定要投!

啊~我也希望天气能晴朗,不要又哭又笑,好吗?

金玉良言/ 相聚

很喜欢关注每天的星洲副刊‘民间语录’。

今天想分享的如下:

给夜猫子,
腾不出时间睡觉的人,迟早会腾出时间来生病

给拜金主义者,
健康是1,财富是0,有了1再加0才有意义,否则再多的0最终都是‘零’。

给易怒者,
因为别人的错误而生气,就是在惩罚自己。

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昨天和三个老朋友相聚,很随性地就看了一部电影shark night。哇~吓到很爽!哈哈~
他们都很‘理智’地看,而我选择不去猜测剧情的后果,被吓才爽嘛
阿材的右手臂被我抓了好几下,呵呵~
有一次最好笑。meng没预料到剧情的结果,所以被吓到跳起来,我们整排都被他‘震’到。哈哈~

在那之前,我们去逛久违的夜市,好像没东西看和买了,meng回应“因为我们都长大了!”哈哈~最后看到耳朵饼,自从童年过去后就再也没吃过,就买了。经过一个档口,小贩用流利的口才摆卖他的5分钟粘壁虎神气纸。当然我们不是被他的神气纸所吸引,反倒是那几只假壁虎和蟑螂。看了几秒,meng说“是真的壁虎吗?”我在旁笑说“当然是假的啦!” 没想到小贩也听到我们的谈话,当我一说完,他就用麦克风说:“这壁虎当然是假的啦!”哎哟,妈呀,那一幕真的很好笑!
还有,我们去吃烧鱼。第一次吃魔鬼鱼哇~多谢阿材介绍!哈哈~满满的食客,有趣的是,很多人经过,都往我们桌上的烧鱼望一眼,我这才发现这里的食客不是每桌都叫烧鱼,可能贵吧!


去吃久违的roti i love u,记得N年前的比较‘丰富’。我们四人一起分享这片roti i love u。他就象征我们之间的情谊一样。很开心地吹水,到1230am @,@ 第一次~
谢谢你们~
回家的路上,凌晨的雾越来越厚,前方的路越来越看不清楚。
是的,未来的路是个未知数,
我们还是会往前冲,我们都要加油,奋斗!
谢谢雯,你提醒我一件事,那就是‘当你越去在意一件事,就会越做不好’。
我太在意保住奖学金的事,但就因为太在意反而丢失了。
meng也告诉我,他的第一学期考试也一样,失败了,第二学期他不去在意这件事,反而成绩大有进步。
还有雯的那一句‘人总要失败一次’。好像在安慰我的心。
这次失败了,要越战越勇!

夏日乐悠悠

Before i watching it, i supposed it is an ordinary love story.
From the beginning, it is ok.
However, until the after-half part,my feeling had started to be spurred within.
the part, when the female main character, xiami (angelababy) is found out that she is a deaf, making a resonance in me.

It doesn't mean i am deaf, but one of my ears lost its function since i was born.
In the movie, the lady always put on her headset /hearing aids , until she is always belittled and blamed by others.
Compared with her, i am more cheerful, because i still have another ear.
Though i just have half hearing, but i really do appreciate.
it will follow me till the end, all i can do is just accept it, because it is unhealed.
Till now, i yet don't know the cause but i guess it is infected when i was born.
Actually, it makes some problems in my life.

In the movie, xiami hates people who call her at her back, because she just can only know what people are saying by studying through their changes of shape of lips. She pretends to be a normal person by this talent.
In my case, i hate to sit/ stand at people' right hand side,because i often cannot hear well when i am at the position. =,= it's troublesome and boring that i have to always repeat" sorry, i need to stand on your left hand side." sigh.
I think i always say "huh?sorry?what?" in my life,and i can't escape this.

Secondly, it is one of the reason that i am scared of lightning.
I cannot bear the sharp and too high sound.otherwise, i would feel dizzy.
Some people who have stayed long time with me sure know i afraid of the lightning,i have tried to make it a normal matter.
I remember one time,i was staying in the library, a technician installs some plugs and sockets on the wall, the sharp sound from the drill makes me really feel like vomiting, i just can only keep closing my ears .it's embarassing. =,=

Thirdly, i have difficulty to hear western people to speak English. one experience on last December,i attended a free registeration of an art school in Singapore. My interviewers is a British, ouch, i was worrying. In the conversation, i repeated 'pardon?' many times,she finally perhaps supposed i don't understand what she said so she slowed down the speed. ahh, i hate this.
maybe u can say my mother tongue is mandarin, so i am unable to listen English smoothly by now. Yet, this is not banned, i confessed, well, i thought my hearing problem also makes a trouble with this matter,too. Sometimes, i just can't catch up what the British/ American talk to me, even in the western movies, sometimes, i can't make it too.Even in the case of the talking among malay .the speed of talking is too fast ,for me~ =,=

Fourthly, sometimes, people may assume i am cool. not i ignore them when they are calling me,but i cannot hear it sometimes. This is indeed annoying.

Although i have less sensitivity on hearing, i do fancy with music.
so what i said i do really appreciate i still have half hearing.

i have realized, precise observation is very crucial since i read some books like NLP which i mentioned before in my previous post) and 'FBI how everybody is saying'.
Likewise in the 'love you you', because of defect, xiami had learnt the talent to be able to observe people thoroughly.
i do believe in the world, there must be a person like this.
i shall learn from this to increase my sensitivity,against the odd.

气!

今天一早起来就看到一向来反感的人。==
尽管是一大把年纪的人,还用装可爱的声音讽刺人家。
真令人作呕。

下午,又来我家。
表姐的女儿突然说:“姨婆,做么你又过来的?”
哈哈,小女孩好像再帮我呛她一样。
我很爽!!
她有点老羞成怒地说:‘做么我不能过来?’
哈,好好反省一下吧你!连小孩都‘看不过眼’。
但是,可悲啊~有些人本性难移,天生的大嘴巴!没办法!

已经是人家妈妈,还一直回娘家吃饭。
这还没关系,还要讽刺人家,讲话不进大脑,还爱贪我家便宜。
你这种人不值得我尊重!

对你,才会有一种莫名的怒气。


第一次


三岁那年,第一次动手术。

四岁那年,第一次踏入幼儿园。

五岁那年,第一次被男生弄哭。

六岁那年,度过第一次的难忘生日。

七岁那年,第一次被老师教导舞蹈。

八岁那年,第一次收到情书。

九岁那年,第一次获得查字典比赛冠军。

十岁那年,第一次投稿去《星星报》。

十一岁那年,第一次参加歌咏。

十二岁那年,第一次唱毕业歌。

十四岁那年,第一次去泰国。

十五岁那年,第一次参加槟城全国领袖营。

十六岁那年,第一次和学记参与和筹办各种活动。

十七岁那年,第一次学会下西洋棋。

十八岁那年,第一次爬山。

人生很多第一次,而这些只是每一年的其中一个第一次。
在我心中还有很多期待的第一次,就列出几个吧!

期待~
第一次看流星,
第一次出书,
第一次背包旅行/去欧洲,
第一次在电影院看恐怖片/鬼戏。(我胆小d,要训练下),
第一次滑雪,
有第一次的成就。
等等~

还有,尝试各种疯狂的事!
哈哈~

书香。启发

原来,
我一直给人不友善的感觉,会令人尴尬。
谢谢你很直接的告诉我,让我明白。就像我一向来对人直率一样。
原因的根点在于我的自我保护意识很高吧!
在我的字典里,我常说“宁愿选择不去尝试会被伤害的事物”。
是的,我是很喜欢尝试新事物的双子, 但我害怕受伤害。
我知道跌倒了才会学到更多,我知道要尝试了才知道,但对于有些事情,我还是选择保留或宁愿不去尝试。

今天去书香,偶然听了一个讲座,讲师不是什么鼎鼎大名的大人物,但他每一句我都听得很专心,还跟着点头。他说,我们的潜意识是很危险的东西。简单来说,它是一个人相信的所谓的事。就像上一段我讲的事情一样,一旦我认定这样的一个‘原则’,我就永远不会踏出去,一直相信这样的原则,除非我改进。
他说,在疲累,要进入梦乡的时候,潜意识的自我保护能力会很低这个时候你告诉自己想改进的事情或让自己变好的事,日积月累,好观念会进入你的潜意识,而改变成好心态。
我打算实践这个好方法,一个我未曾试过的好方法。

今天在the mines的书香战利品有两个,下次会上载与大家分享。
还有那令我难忘的抹茶口味的冰淇淋,啊~好吃!

尝试,打破不好的潜意识。
环境和经验造就现在的我们,我们无法选择,但我们有权利选择改变不好的观念。

晚安!各位!临睡前,我要对自己说
“我是有自信的人 !"
哈哈XD

recent reading

This is the book i have read recently and it is borrowed from library.
oh my god! this book which i concerned a long time ago and finally be bought a few years ago in book fair but i still havn't start to read it yet. i may recommend you this ! i like its story line.
‘点滴城市’是我第一阅读侯文咏的作品。这本书讲述作者对科技、时代变迁、医学与文学的矛盾等的看法。

NLP也是我物色已久的书,终于拥有它。虽然是迟了四个月的礼物。也谢谢珍珠爸爸。
对我来说,这门学问很有趣,需要花点时间去明白和运用它。


身边的朋友多数向来博览群书,而我在中学才开始买书,充实自己,希望可以练到一目十行的境界,尤其是英文书籍,哈哈~
虽然我没被从小培养阅读的习惯。但我觉得很高兴的是,虽然没有书香的家庭或环境,我自己培养起了这方面的兴趣,因为有着一个梦想。
希望大家也一样爱书。
爱阅读的人更幸福,因为他不只拥有真实的世界,还拥有浩瀚的书海。
这是我曾经在某书看到的一席话,共勉之。

it was over!

Oh no ! it's 2 months that i have not update my sweety blog~ ><
well, year end exam was over. i strive for it so long time.oww..i deeply hope i can hold my scholarship as well. God bless me!
i tried my best in the exam but i still did some careless mistakes still.
but i know, this time i had tried to calm down ,my brain got not panic like last time.
it's time to compensate myself by doing favourite stuffs.

i realized that i have not sing karaoke for almost 1 year and a few months for movie~
what pity .
recently, i have desire to watch " In Time" and " you are the apple of my eye".
About the latter movie, i just fancy with its theme song 'the years' by Hu Xia. Just because of the song, i also like to watch the movie as well. haha~
My year end holidays is coming. i hope i can gather with GB .it's damn long we didn't join and sing together since secondary school, fellows.
Yesterday, VK daddy gave me NLP tool book finally, which is his promise for my june birthday gift.(damn late~ haha)
the so-called NLP = Neuro Linguistic Programme.
i tagged this book in Popular a long long time ago. today on the way back to hometown alone, i start a few pages.
it's hard for me to explain what it is to u here, but for me ,it is related to psychology although the author mentions NLP does not versus psychology.
On the other hand, i borrow a book called " 50 great myths of popular psychology" from library. i intend to read it through within 2 weeks.

And the first thing i did after exam and back is watch " Percy Jackson& the Olympians" .it is absolutely a good movie.it include humour,touching,power,family and values ~recommend you this! (some might watched)

it is 1 month i do not back hometown,and lastly i am at my hometown now. miss u,my family.
since living in the city, i do not eat dragon fruit. indeed, i am influenced by my dad whom like to eat dragon fruit. just now i ate it half and leave it half for my dad. it feels good ! oww.
all my feelings are concluded as a word 'hilarious' now!

appreciate the 2 weeks before holidays.

Refresh

1 week holidays was passed.
Even though it is a bit short,
but contradictorily i think it is not too short for me.,it is just.
it is wonderful and full,
went to climb Broga Hill, FRIM waterfall, annual Book fest, gathered with family, met with old friends, made hair bonding (finally,untidiness is gone!)),catched up with the new hongkong tv ,ate delicious food... even first time i helped my mom to wash the bathroom and toilet!! hoho~so funny!
Before, i never do this! haha~
Since i have stayed in rent house in KL a time, i need to settle all things and take care by own. well, i inherit some "overnice quirk" from my mom. hoho~i really cannot accept the mess or nastiness. haha~
the only regret is no jogging in the holidays, haha~
especially i felt upset that my old fellow said once she saw me "oww,u have gained flesh!"
sigh. i know. how if i say i cannot eat well in KL and the meal times are not constant? This "cannot eat well" means that the outside food are not healthy as well.
I want to do gym, to swim ,to jog as much as i can.

Yesterday evening i back to the rent house,the renter ,auntie and uncle welcomed me back.
well, at the time,i havn't rearrange my feeling.
during tidying up my stuffs,i had tried to back to school life.
i know, human is an animal whose life is linked with habit.
once you get chronic in a particular situation, u will adapt in it and be lazy to change to another mode.

so, learn it! and make this a habit as our life is full with breaks and works.just keep it balance.
Refresh.
Thanks for the break!
appreciate.

Broga Hill

On 30 aug, in my 18 years life, it is the first time i climb the mountain.
at least that is a little goal in me.
there are so many climbers too,because of school holidays.
adults ,youngsters , male ,female , families there.
On the way climbing up the hill, i saw many youngsters as my secondary school time. i could feel the energetic spirit and vitality from them. i like it!
thanks for my sister and bro,pok. i was satisfied after accomplished this.
even when i had felt the wind ,it is pretty comfortable and relieved.
Broga Hill is a nice place to climb. it has other nickname called "thatch hill" .the pathway become steeper and steeper starting from midway. i often encourage sister . finally, we reached
above my head, there is a light blue sky.it's so wonderful. u have to climb once to realize what the splendid feeling is.
sitting on the rocks, feel the wind blowing on my face. plus some warm on my face from the sunlight.

once u climb the hill or mountain, all your stress will go far away.
you will realize, everything is going to be easy,every trouble in the globe is not the doomsday.
you can make it ,just by an easy way, switch your mind to open,change your degree.

惊险又快乐


今天真是惊险的一天。
而惊险,只有我和roomate了解,而且永远记得那滋味。
一早起来,吃顿简单的早餐,就上路咯!
啊~第一次第一天到popular海外书市报到,今年也是最后一次免费进入了。(成人真没福利!)
找好久才找到朝圣之地,真是有够好笑的。
一进入就看到我找了很久都没找到的书“the memory‘s daughter”,翻译成华文的小说名称是《不存在的女儿》,加上价钱太值得了,想都没想,就买了,哈哈!后来去买需要的文具,都太物超所值了啦!
由于时间有限,只是走马看花,其实还想物色一本华文书才满足。看到有一个人拿着一篮cd,我肯都有两百多片,好像卖cd。哈哈~可见大家都是趁一年一度的书市来痛快的扫货。

接着我们去公园,来了几次KLCC,今天我才知道它的公园蛮大的,还有简单的水上乐园和超大的游乐场。我们回味童年的时候也没忘了定格美好快乐的时刻。
阿~还有一个外国小男孩对我们微笑,他的笑容迷死人了。临走前还对我们挥挥手说“byebye”他跑的时候chubby face 也在跳,哇~超可爱啊!

我们还遇到了好久不见的朋友,也是惠蔚的远亲—卿柔!阿~她真是越来越美了,头发也长了。

说到惊险,我们花了至少半小时才平复心情。
买了肉圆清汤面回来,我们看到我们的东西不翼而飞了,那一刻真是吓到脑袋空白。
环顾四周,拼命物色我们的东西在哪个角落。
没多久,一个外国男生走来,他拿错了我们的东西,他和朋友都把东西还给我们。那时我们还有点没回过神来的感觉。
两点,我们在LRT分别向左走,向右走。

大约六点,才到家。
第一次,背着超重的laptop,站了一小时半的车程~
累,肩膀也超酸的。快来帮我按摩啦!哈哈!

简单的一天。吸取教训的一天。快乐的一天。
一星期的假期开始咯~

最近

那天心血来潮,自拍了好几张。半年多没剪的刘海也这么长了。
竟然到鼻子了。hoho~像鬼吗?刚好是在农历七月期间拍的。
哈哈,还是别搞怪啦!这个比较正常咯!hoho!

明天一早就去KLCC海外书市,往年我一有机会都会去,尽量不错过,所以今年我牺牲早一天回家,去观光了才回家咯!终于能回家,一星期都好,要把握和家人的相聚。想念爸爸妈妈婆婆姐姐^^

frustrated

recently, i had been feeling frustrated since i got the results of all subjects of test1.
my friends get high mark.i know they put many effort on it.they worth to get the good result.
seem like i cannot catch up the lessons.
"time is not enough for me!"
Most time,i always shout this few words in my mind.
but i know, that is a big excuse for losers.
well, i just mutter here.
i know,
till the last, i also have to solve the stress and endeavor ownself.
be strong!! yan!
cheer up!ok!

so fast,August is coming soon.i always tell myself, enjoy all the days.

你不孤单

星期四傍晚,我搭车到serdang,然后和姐姐一起回家乡
星期五的课取消了!^^ 这是我自从开课后,第一次星期四回家乡。
在LRT上,我遇到一个“怪人”。
他坐在我的对面,开着电话里的歌,把电话靠向左耳,随着音乐唱着。
是的,他是在唱着。
我隐约听到歌词,原来是那首孙燕姿的《风筝》,也是我喜欢的歌。
唱着唱着,我听到哽咽的歌声。
起初我没看他。
抬头一看,他真的在抽泣。
我在想,他是失恋吗?还是面临太大的工作压力,而觉得没有人可以倾诉?
他没有理会其他人的眼光,一边哽咽,一边“享受”唱歌。
过了几站,我下车了。
这还是我第一次遇到这样奇怪的感性男生。

回到芙蓉,一家人一起去吃螃蟹
两个星期没看到爸妈,所以和他们尽情分享了我在另一边的生活。
车上,聊着聊着,我和姐姐累得睡着了。
爸爸静静驾着车,妈妈在旁静静地帮爸爸看路(妈妈在车上一向来都是爸爸的第二双眼睛)。
这画面像回到小时候一样,爸妈喜欢带着我们几个小瓜到the mines游玩。

很多时候,我会像LRT上的那男生一样,感觉无助而默默哭泣,但我决不会像他那样,在别人面前哭。
要知道,你不是孤单的。你是被充满爱和祝福的。
继续打拼!压力是有的。
the smooth seas do not make skilful sailors. (经典名言)
这句话是我今天在报纸上看到的。
激励了自从第一次小考而有压力的我。
我绝对可以胜任每一科。一定!

灵感

到现在,我还没有搞定散文。
完成了一半,可是我觉得挺生硬的。也没有太多时间去完成。><
啊~
可是,脑子里有一些灵感,关于小说的。
其实我一直在搜集灵感,然后写成一篇小说,再放上popo网站。
可是那会用很久的时间吧。
毕竟我不是常常上网,也有学业要兼顾。
那个灵感是,故事的一开始,女生上公车,到了下一站,某男生坐在正对面,到了十一站,两人下车,开始了很多交集。
这不是爱情小说,但也不排除可能性。因为我还在想有更特别更有意义的情节,并不是纯爱情。
我会把身边某些人的一些外貌、特征或性格融入故事里的角色。

p/s:最近梦想买一只适合又喜欢的手表,陪我度过每一秒。尤其是紫色的。
存钱+想办法赚钱。

sweet 18

life goes fast.
i am 18,start from yesterday, 10 june 2011.
when the past, friends helped me settle activities or else and gave me surprise.
this time,i invited my dear buddies .
i made it into 2 sessions.
although there wasn't all attend,but actually i felt it's ok, since i just want to make it simple,small,funny and fabulous gathering/party.

thanks for ah loke for waiting patiently there.we talked a lot on the journey to s'ban since we long time no see.
around 11am++,we all gathered in mcdonald.
haha~actually i dislike to eat fast food but for this time,i made an exception.
we ordered mcd lunch meals.
coincidently, a 25th xuedi was having meal there.he was wearing msia xueji camp T-shirt but he didnt notice us at all.
funny that kokchen forced him to say happy birthday to me.
"xuejie,happy birthday to u."junior yong xuan said.
"ha,i don't recognise u at all."me act cool.
all were laughing like hell.
"haha, just kidding,thanks .junior.u can go back to continue with your meal alrdy."
"oh,thanks xuejie."
omg......the situition was a bit weird.wahaha~

around 2pm,we went to s'ban mount royal.
in fact, i damn love natural. so i have a little wish that is celebrating bday in the natural.
thanks for all your cooperation and u all made up my little wish..lol.
But Rocky said,"huh?mount royal?you wanna go there to feed mosquitoes?"
He seems like quite dislike there.haha.but at last,he also went with us. thanks.
that was first time i stay there ,when the past ,i just always went through there.
we shot sendiri in the mount royal and had fun there.
i didnt thk that they would buy a cake for me.
that is a delicious chocolate cake.
since we all didnt have lighter,so i 'blown' the candles which are without flame.How's special like this. haha.
before blowing the candles, 23 asked me to wish 10 hopes for each of them and myself.
my hopes for every of them made they laugh but importantly,i wanna u all live well,peacefully,pleasantly and safely.
actually,i planned to back home around 3pm but i didnt suppose that we got crazy and high and had fun till 5.30pm.

around 4pm,we went back to T1 to meet huiping and mikayo.
after passing sban parade,we need to walk across the road.
zhixian,xiaomeng,kokchen and zhenloke walked across the road successfully.
but for girls,we retracted our legs when we saw the cars are near.haha~
then,we have to wait again and the opposite site, zhixian took out his camera and captured us across the road.
the drivers may feel strange on us.wahaha~
after reached t1,we went to our old place that is Easy Way.
it was funny that xiaomeng said"ahh..i long time don't drink water already~"
hoho,he was bombastic and seem like just came back from desert.haha.
around 5.30pm,we brought the not willing mood to dismiss.
we already promised that next time must go to visit malacca together in the holidays.
Thanks,peyen,peiling,xiaomeng,kokchen,xueting,hyee,zhixian,zhenloke,mikayo,huiping,rocky.

i rushed back to go kfc at night.
guan han's swift car is damn nice,but white one i think more nice.haha~
thanks for his sending.
gladful that dear fellows attended to the "heihei romantic party" in the black fabulous Friday.
they are stalie,caveun,aaron,zhihan,chrisliang,kaiwen,siowping,guanhan,addy,waiming,huiwei,joney,kahkheng,jamice,siangyi.
although some of them confirmed me they would attend but absent at last, i also felt appreciated with them.they are my dear buddies often.
some of them cnt attend,but please rmb u are always be remembered in my heart.
maybe we long time no meet each other,we all talked enjoyably with each other.
around 9.30pm ,we went to romantic place.
on 10.30pm,we just opened the cake and cut.
there was two fruit cake.
one is bought by guanhan and other is by my parents.it was coincidence.
so,i decided to cut guanhan's 'gift'.
and we were singing the birthday songs in the darkness.
i cnt cut the cake perfectly and chrisliang helped me to do it.
they dislike my cut cake due to bad look but chrisliang's.lol.is ok.
jamice shared her life in matrix school with us and whine about it.
stalie also shared us the she just moved to nilai uc frm matrix in perlis .
we had a lot of fun throughout the romantic night.
Ultimately,thanks so much,dear fellows and the gift.
and thanks for the wishes from friends which are via facebook and sms and from family.

i will be more mature mentally.
i will be more confident and more daring as time goes.
with bringing your all wishes,i must go well,happily,peacefully and successfully in life.
thank you, and thanks you. muack.
aza aza fighting ,Yan. from now! ^^

失败与梦想

失败了。
第一次用三个月的时间泡制的小说落选了。
没关系。
早就预料到。
那儿只不过有两个奖项。
我当时也只不过想开始参加各项文学创作比赛
朝我的梦想前进。
想想,
假如我害怕失败,从来不参加比赛、投稿,
我就注定不会有梦想实现的一天。

我的文笔还生涩,欠佳人生经验。
所以,当然我酝酿着我的人生经验想象力
不会放弃!

p/s * 本人最近投稿了一篇散文参赛。

另外,今天脑子里又冒起了一个念头,其实这念头已埋藏心里已久,终于在2011年6月5号,我决定让它兑现
否则我一直“口上谈兵”,蹉跎我的宝贵光阴。哈哈~(讲得有一点夸张><)

六月天

life goes fast.
it had been June.
my June.
sigh.
as i have been growing up, i found that each month has around 30 days,it isn't enough.
one week has 7 days only, it isn't enough.
1 day has 24 hours only,it isn't enough.
ahhhhh.
anyhow i mutter about it,
the fact is life goes fast.
2011 leaves half.
please appreciate the golden time.

Yesterday night i went for a wedding with grandma.
sitting beside me is an auntie who always drink.
i got shocked she didn't get drunk for many cup of red wine and beer.
so i asked her: "auntie,how don't u get drunk even many cup of wine and beer?"
she smiled and answer me even teached me the way to not get drunk is must let your stomach fill a bit before drink.

then, we started to talk happily.
she told me that she just back from UK and France last month.
she emphasized that UK's environment is great but France's safety is freakly bad.
oh, in my mind, my dream travel place is romantic and artistic place,France.
although that, i still dream to go travel in france a day .
her sharing is interesting.
she often encourages me to go to UK.

When the wedding was going to end,we said goodbye to each other.
ohh,she and her husband are so cute and sweet,and my grandma said they were having their honeymoon again in UK last month.
how do i say that? because her husband showed me his cute smile and pattern and said :"hello! byebye!"
haha~
nice to meet the auntie,an positive-minded auntie.

Before this, i am a cool girl and dislike to be initiative to talk with strangers.
but since this year, i had changed.i glad for ownself about this.
it is because it give me a lot of fun and surprise.

p/s: 1 week..countdown..

人生总有第二次

啊~
又要面对你了!
还有准准一个星期。
幸好老师能安排我在这两星期的暑假里。
想到你,就要想到一个金句来鼓励自己:
你可以被困难打倒,但不能被困难打败!

这次,心里要更平静
我不要像上一次一样。
我不想把你当成我一生的阴影。
你只不过是人生中那么小小的困难。
我感到羞愧,怎么输给了你!!
所以,
这一次!
我一定要打败你!!
p/s:别聪明反被聪明误,变通,活在当下,掌握自己在做什么。

college life started.

this is the first post since i have started my college life.
ahh. i cnt online at my home here and meanwhile, i also don't have much time to online.

i remember first day when i attented the lecture class. a nice mix girl sit beside me.
thus, we made friend and also knew that we are same tutorial and practical class.
She is Nicole, a beautiful mix include portuguese,chinese....and so on..wow! so much blood she mix.haha~
even we have the same interest -psychology.

during the orientation week,i met some friends from other course.
since started classes, i get a bit boring but is ok. haha~
i met some friends who are my classmates . and naturally become a gang and often go to canteen and attend class together.
everyday,i experience fun with them.

in the other word,we always have funny story.
when i write my diary, i think back what had happened today and accidentally laugh out.
the funny things i always record into my diary and when i leave my college, i will make it as the wonderful and pleasant memories in the college.
i shared with my roomate usually.haha~
hoho~this monday,i did my first time presentation in life. and even use english to present.
wow~i am satisfied with my performance,i found that i am daring to say loudly gradually. i hope i can speak without seeing the papers and just free to elaborate next time.

about the classes, i like to attend Bio and GP classes.
Bio lecturer Ms chong always emphasize that understand the lessons is very vital.i like her teaching style.so i always focus to her teaching and dont get tiredness.
GP is definitely a critical thinking skills and english class. we can watch the limited advertisement which do not be annouced on any media. haha~ but this is just not the main point that why i like GP class .
and last time, i made a big decision that make me annoyed before made sure it ,that is dropped Physics.actually i cant adapt with the lecturer's teaching style.and also in my future, i thought that physics is useless.besides that, i dont get much interest and cant catch up the lessons.
However, i found that there are many top and active students in my course.i make us as my role models.
so i keep endeavour .Yes! always understand the classes and lessons.enjoy study.

and my home auntie is a nice woman, sometimes she prepared yummy soup to us.
i remember one rainy night, she cook mee to us and the barley soup.it made my stomach so full.and my heart so warm. like feeling home.
i feel grateful .definitely.

and tomorrow evening ,i will back to hometown for 2 weeks holidays.
haha~
enjoy the holidays and keep catch up with my lessons.

i hope i will have a full and wonderful holidays.
actually i want to work part-time job but there is no enough time for me.2 weeks only.
gather with family and randy tomorrow night.
well, in holidays, i hope that i can make more friends and improve my english promptly.
i will grasp the chances.

p/s: 15 days more to be an adult.(but actually i felt i might not)haha~ countdown... ><

My plans

1. learning guangdong language, japanese and french

2. improve english
( watch USA movie & tv)

3. write articles and essays
(contribute to press / taking part competition)

4. keep fit

5. make new friends

6. reading

7. always smile

8. care about family,friends and surrounding people.
(everyone is my role model.)

9. travelling

10.earn money

11. economics

12. drink much water everyday

13. environmental protection

14. psychology knowledges

15. do hobbies

fed up

Throughout this boring weeks,
i fed up!
i don't want to amass my down mood.
i hope something happen to stimulate me.

i have been expecting for my new life.
however,i am also not willing to leave my home.
i will miss my parents and family.
grandma and parents have been concerning me.
they gave advice and bought me some necessities.

i prepared my 2 heavy luggage and things.
and also, i have got ready to welcome a new life.

this is the first time i will left home for a long time.
may get home at least 1 time in a month.
see the situition first.

i will keep my faith always to go on my life.
that is be appreciated and grateful what i have.
thank you.

最后一次的练车

情绪化
这个字多么贴切。
给今天。

今天蛮舒服的。
昨天练车时很多错误,
还被骂。
今天明显‘醒目’了。
对,我就是要专心,注意,记得及改掉错误,加强敏锐度。
大太阳高挂,
到脸都快通红了。

昨晚,感到满失落的。
家人不希望我学车,认为都没什么用到。
其实我学车,基本上是为了方便以外,还有几个其他的原因。
学车,让我慢慢消化了对驾车的阴影。(每天都有车祸的新闻)
驾车,其实是很有趣的事。它也提醒我专心和小心的重要性。(我常常一心多用)
还有,我很喜欢学习
总觉得,学会一样东西很开心。
我很想学钢琴,但我希望那是从小培养上来的事,
可是家里没有这么优雅的培育,不过我很知足了。
没什么,还有很多东西值得我学习呢!
好学,好奇,正因为我是双子座。
所以,从中四开始,我爱上阅读。求知欲旺盛。
我心中的梦想也由此增加了一个。
尽管我成绩算优秀,爸妈也不觉得怎样。但我相信爸妈多少都有点开心吧!
我真的希望爸妈说”你真让我们感到光荣!”。
反而这句话是从别人口里说出。反而别人猛关心我的未来。

妈妈受教育不多,不了解教育的重要性,我体谅。
爸爸不善于用表情或情绪表达感受,我体谅。
我很努力,不增加父母的负担。
但是,有时候,我想学习的东西,希望受别人肯定,不被反对。
但还是,我孤军作战。
最后,我把它当成学习独立。自己的路自己走。
但有时怕固执会让自己后悔,所以我才会一向来在意别人的看法。

我的升学计划不能由我想象中的完美,因为我还要考虑家庭经济的事。
我自己去申请,自己搞好一切,一路来都有反对,顾虑和鼓励。
谢谢爸妈自由让我选择自己的方向,因为他们不了解升学的事。
口口声声说我的升学路要动用他们很多钱,可是他们也很支持我的。

这次就让我用文字和眼泪抒发出来。
电话那头的反对,我知道你是为我好的。
但我选了我的路,就会做到最好。再想办法出国继续。
请你放下对KL的偏见,好吗?
我真希望你不会再反对我,虽然你是关心我的亲戚。
我需要别人的肯定支持

我在心里对自己发誓了。我就会做到最好!

choice

ouch,i had not wrote my post at my iyanzi sweet home for a month ago. ><
..................................................................................................

Today, it is 6 April.
what's a smooth and lucky day for me even though there was rainy in the afternoon.
i have been appreciating.

thanks , Chris Liang for accompanying me to go there.
and at there, i met Chan Yang. Luckily, his parents brought him to come on the same day.
thanks for God,arranged a smooth plan to me. we can back sban with Chan Yang just because of You, rainy day.
thanks for Charles Hiew, u gave me a lot of opinion ,assistance and information.

ultimately,
i made a big decision !under no way.
it's just because of the biggest obstacle.
i don't know whether it's a good or bad option.
i just know, when i start to do it, i have to do it my best.
i don't have the innate richness which are priority.
however,i make it an anneal.
i will start from a base,not the best base.

for my parents, i have been cheerful because i know you care about me and love me although you don't realize it at all. i considerate.
i promised in my heart, i will make you proud of me. i will success and seize the chances ownself. i owe you too much and i can't blame that you are not affordable.

in the future ,i must make other people be sure to me.
i endeavour for it by own.
i can do it !

荣幸

昨天,第一次驾车
九点到十点。
感觉:+手忙脚乱
上斜坡时才会手忙脚乱啦!
一路练习一直笑。
走直路时,就当做是在fun fair驾的碰碰车。哈哈~

回家时,在路口等车。
大概十分钟,
一辆红色德士停下,
没办法,最讨厌等了,就坐德士回家咯!
车上。
“兰嫂输了很多。”司机说道。
“是啊……”前座的妇女答道。
我告诉司机我的家后就一直安静坐着。
他们继续谈。
一大堆的福建话,多数听不懂,但我知道他们一直提到我婆婆和爸爸的别名。

到我家门前了,
“uncle,停这里好了!”
“啊?你是谁的女儿啊?”
“我就是XX的女儿!”
司机惊讶地转回头来,“哈?……”
前座的妇女说道:“我就说咯!这女生很面熟~”
但我好像没看过她。
司机说:“嗯,算你五块就够了!”
(即使很贵,但坐德士都是这样的啦!这么远的车程,算不错了!)
一下车,我忍不住笑了出来。
哈哈~真为我爸爸和婆婆感到光荣
他们朋友满天下。

先在此说声对不起,我偶尔脾气不好,说我管家婆,其实我也是希望你们好,我关心。
我的家庭多可爱~我爱他们。

8 days black lady

2月20日,我开始了我人生中第一个工作
也是第一个part-time工作。
因为时间不多,就选暂时的。
学习、获取经验和充分利用时间嘛!
短短的八天却给了我很多很好的经历。
(虽然有一点咳嗽了)

哈哈~上面的照片挺鬼马的吧?
说到这,我在整个工作地方算是最小的。
这地方让我看到了一些社会上的负面,没关系,我就是要多知道多体验。

记得第二天,我一人搭公车去工作。
半途中,遇到一个年龄与我相仿的男生。
奇怪,我怎么会有想和他交朋友的念头呢?他一上车,第一眼就看到我。我躲避了他的眼神。
不知是我多心吗?他过后下车了。他经过车窗前,看着我,我怪别扭的,马上转移眼神向别处东张西望。
希望还会再见到他!但我相信这只不过是一面之缘罢了。
呵呵~没遗憾什么。这感觉有时会有的。顺其自然。
登登!这是我工作的时候。怪闷的。但我遇到各式各样的人。
之前我对化妆品及保养品一知半解的,其实学问挺大的呢!
我较注重保养品。看我的淡妆(简直像没化一样,我知道很难看)就知道我不喜欢浓妆。
有些同事挺美的,但我不知道她们卸下妆后会不会是原来的样子。
总觉得妆化得越浓,那个人就像戴上面具一样,很假。
但我也不会排斥化妆品,毕竟它是让一些女性充满自信的武器。
我从来没试过这么闷,于是为了不浪费时间,我涂涂写写。
我做了一些我平时认为是浪费时间的事,但现在不会了。有文字和画画陪伴我。
这工作也很考验我的耐力,也分别见到两对让我印象深刻的情侣。
你认为情侣没什么好出奇?
是啊!我要说的是这男生很耐心地陪女友选指甲油,给她建议,一点也不会大男人主义。另一对我忘了。
爱情不就是两人一起面对一件事,一起学习,一起努力吗?
多么令人感动。(哈哈~我的确是感性的人。)
也有问路的外国游客。当我解答他们的疑问时是多么的满足。帮助人真的很开心。
我也从我的senior-Kelly学到少少的广东话。她也让我看到人可以很情绪化。

这工作很多条规,也让我发生很多糗事,但我把它当做是经验,下次不再犯错。
遇到一些说话可恶的顾客,我也欣然接受。哼!想到那刻薄的安娣,我相信世上像她这样‘狗眼看人低’的人很多,我才不怕!我的确还有很多要学习的。

即使这里有一些不喜欢的人,但没关系。
有一些顾客挺好笑的,那夫妻不买产品,反而问我是不是马来人。
其实他们也不是第一个这么说我了。
还有一个同事,在我喝水的时候,说我的五官像马来女生一样漂亮,其实我倒认为他们说我像马来人是因为我皮肤黑吧!哈哈~

第七天,工作地点对面有cornetto ice-cream免费分发会。哈哈~吃到最新的草莓口味,蛮甜的。
咳嗽了,还吃冰淇淋?
管他的!有免费又好久没吃了,不吃白不吃。呵呵~
那天,放工后,和姐姐、姐夫去Cheras pasar malam,那里真的应有尽有,遇到很多kp人。
还看到hainam kopitiam。
你是不是觉得kopitiam有什么出奇的?
这是来自kp何香版权的茶餐厅哦。店面还有一个大大的logo“kuala pilah".当然kp的最正宗。
一路上是美食、衣服等等,吸引不着我。
美食都是煎炸的,我还有一些感冒,不能吃。最后我姐还是受不了诱惑,也拖我下水了。

看到书摊,我眼睛都亮了。FBI的书,放弃了,钱不够。下次一定可以买到。我先买了我一直想买的书(终于找到了)《做你自己》2011年1月出版,挺新的。好爽!
还有上面的hellokitty,看到吗?可爱啊!有小叮当、melody、bear等等。
咬下去像sponge 一样软,又温温的,好好吃。

12天在kl的日子,却感觉很漫长。
每天充满习惯的生活,的确有一点麻木。难怪都市的人容易忧郁烦躁。

2月28日,工作结束的第一天。
和姐姐出来跑步
看到那些人忙着挤上公车,想到八天里的我也像他们一样为免工作迟到而奔波。
心里不禁呵呵起来,自由真的很令人愉快舒服。
我们沿着马路走到大操场跑了三圈。
这里的乌烟瘴气永远比不上我家乡的新鲜空气
我们面向凉风,背向暖暖的太阳,大喊,唱歌。

下午在old town吃午餐,从oldtown讲到何香,从何香讲到马六甲,从马六甲讲到我们小时候一家人最深刻印象的回忆……好开心。

接着一人回到老家
走着斜坡,我忍不住说“我回来了”。
晚上和丘、sim、vincent去喝茶吃沙爹
多么充实简单。我喜欢。

亲人节快乐

110214
Today is valentine day.
i 'celebrated' with my family.
i dont think that is a regret because i am single.
just due to i have my family, i am cheerful.

actually my mum wanted to relished the service of nails colours.
and i had been expecting for watching 'Homecoming' for a long time.
finally, i actualised it. haha~
i ordered a couple seat.
it is more expensive ><. anyway, is ok ..^^ haha~waiting for my partner. 2.15pm, going into room 6 seat ,G3 G4. beside of us is a couple. did u guess who is my partner ?
haha~ i think u can't guess it out.
tada...my dearest daddy.
i found that this is almost just second time for me to watch movie in cinema with daddy.
oh gosh..too bad!
So contented, "Homecoming" is fantabulous+funny+meaningful.
i like the role acted by Jack Neo.
"she" like to help people in her crazy or funny way >< haha~
even daddy and i laugh without any worry.

in a part of the movie, when the young girl saw her mother had other family and felt abandoned, she cried and realised that she has to back to eat reunion dinner with her dad.
oh, at the same time, i dropped down my tears..
accidentally, i found that my dad was sobbing.
i quickly passed him a piece of tissue.
like him, i am a person who is easily to be touched.

in a conclusion, the movie is great, u should watch it.
i don't think i am single and it make me bad.
i suppose that my Mr.right will come out a day.

Happy valentine to my daddy and mummy,
my eldest sis and my brother-in-law,
my third sis and her bf,
my friends who are in a relationship and single.
single buddies, for me and you,
2 people always close together (1314).

简单是一种幸福

我变了,
从前,我很喜欢热闹繁忙
许多人聚在一起大吵大闹的。
曾经,繁忙对我来说,是一种充实
固然如此。
但现在,我只喜欢,
过得简单平安快乐就好。
生活不要太复杂,否则会对世界失去信心。
看过了各种复杂人生的戏,更崇拜简单。
看过了报纸每天的人情世故,更向往平静。

我可以很疯狂勇敢,
当我找到很疯狂快乐的事以后。
我恨不得去闯
但那些现实逼得我越向往简单的生活。

简单不代表单调
虽然有时是单调的,但总比复杂好。
总结来说,简单比单调好,单调比复杂好。
简单是一种幸福

这是我今天的感想。

Mid Valley

Yesterday i went to midvalley MAPCU education fair with Joney Shwo Yin, Stalie lim, Mei Yan papa, Mervin pig.
This is such my first time go out one-day with them ,old friends.
We gained ample harvest .
In bus and KTM, how can we chat selflessly with each other untill disturb other passengers..
haha..
pardon us, we have not seen each other for a long time (actually just is 1 month).

Because of Sunday and CNY is around in the corner, there are crowded people.
We seeked for our favourite course in the fair respectively after enjoyed our terrible lunch.
how i used the word 'terrible' doesn't mean the luch is disgusting or else, just because its cost.....><

After that,Joney and me went shopping, actually we just want to seek for shorts.
Finally, i bought a light blue colour Romp shorts.
there is crowded people even i have to queue up to pay for the shorts.

We met Randy & Addy who has worked in Ogawa.
So glad to meet them like they were so excited to see us too.
We made a surprise to them without informing them we go to visit them.
haha, a funny experience ,before we all get back together, Joney and i went to find Randy and Addy in advance.
We peeped opposite of the shop.
So childish how v did it..haha, but it was a crazy and funny memory.
unluckily, Addy recognized me , and we ran quickly.
After that, we met them in the gateway.
Randy was so surprised when saw us.
Ang he almost dropped down his tears.
haha, u know how he is so easily touched like always..
hug hug, dont cry,sha po Ran. kaka~

Then, Billy who is Stalie's, Mervin's and my friend came to meet us.
so happy to see him .
He is unchangeable, keep smiling.
our time is no enough.
Later, he have to go to continue with his tasks.
Around 6pm,we said good bye to them.
Stay tuned with our chitchat in the KTM and bus.
Mervin still be the pity lonely guy just because all of them went ladies coach.

This was a simple pleasant day with my old buddies.
We will meet during Chinese New Year again. ^^

快后慢

昨天,
一人坐在电脑前,
看过了半个世纪的《初恋红豆冰》。
到了接近尾声,被那句话感动到……
让我回忆起一些事。
那句话
“就像在很热很热的下午,
吃进口里的红豆冰,
又冰,
冷到舌头都疼了,
但是,来不及去感受那滋味,
就融化了。”

说真的,不管在任何方面,
那种感觉大家都曾有过吧?

有时忘了身边的人给自己的好,
没好好感受和感恩现有的好,
转过身来时,
才发现,可能太迟了。

因此,慢慢地,学会珍惜拥有的一切。
最重要的,大家有健健康康的身子。
现在还有在家的一段日子,要把握,和家人。
家常菜,后院的风景,宁静的风,温暖的阳光,
爸爸默默付出没有怨言的样子,
妈妈脸上的皱纹……
虽然这里相比外面的世界是多么的“野外”,
多么的沉闷,多么的不便,多么的缺乏,
但我依然喜欢这简单,慢步骤又悠闲的地方。
城里的亲人都说我什么都慢,
是现在的环境让我习惯吧!
虽然说慢工出细货,但随着不断改变的世界,被迫得要跟上脚步。
那时去新加坡三天,突然有一点适应不来。
是时候训练自己了。
快,或许能抓住更多。
就像吃红豆冰,
要快抓住那个滋味,
才能慢慢品尝。

这里的一切,
会是我以后展翅高飞后所怀念的。

S'pore & me

So sorry, ignore my sweet home a long time a go i think.
Last time when i enter my sweet blog, i don't know what i want to share and write here.
So, just leave it.

From 14 jan to 16 jan, i was staying in Singapore.
This is the first time i go through many places within few days.

First day, my aunt,Jessie took me to visit NTU in Pioneer(Jurong).
What's a far place from S'pore Kastam(Woodlands) to there!
Even though it is far away from centre or city, but i like its environment, compared to NUS.
in NTU, u must have a bicycle at least.
or u will also have a good stature due to walk for a long distance in it always.
haha, we were sweating when we were going to the students centre by asking people.
After that, we took MRT to NUS.
It was rainy day.
we encountered 2 juniors like my age who come from indonesia & china but studied in singapore for a long time.
They also want to go to students centre and were willing to guide us.
They spoke fluent english in front of me.
Oops, i feel some belittled.
Since i went to singapore, i really realize that English is vital indeed in society or other countries.
Due to i want to further study in singapore , this is a first big challenge for me,
i believe, one day, i can speak fluent english with singapore person even western guys !
I need an environment which embraced with people who say english actually.

On second day, my aunt guided me to visit S'pore Polytechnic.
Unluckily, the students centre close on sat and sun.
Then , aunt fetched me go to national singapore library in Bugis.
i like to stay there so much.
as a result, i was scolded by my aunt due to late to leave there.
Actually i had an appointment with connie & kah hwee.
They were going to Lasalle, kah hwee accompanied connie to register to enter lasalle.
Finally, we met them in NAFA. there were crowded people because the day is open house.
Gladly, i took the free recycling bag when enrolling. haha~
And the building of Lasalle is so artistic.
i got free register at there.
in the register centre, i first time spoke english with western lady for almost 20 minutes i supposed.
So nervous, the cool air made my hands colder even.

On third day, nice Sunday,My aunt fetched me to visit the Orchid Garden Church.
I was guided to youth's church.
with some nervous, i saw many youth in the church and were doing worship.
the activity is using 2 straws and given paper to make a ship and sail.
Then i was allocated to a group.
The nice girl treated me friendly, but i forgot to ask for her name.
and a junior who is same age with me, stare at the cartoon of my garment .
Actually, he like baby milo..
Through the worship, i recognized a nice song "Tear Down the Walls" and singing with the youth.
I gain confidence from God.
actually, my obvious defect is less confident.
i must cope it.
after that, i visited National S'pore library again for 3 hours.
Enjoyed with psycho, art, history,chinese...
next time when i come singapore again, i sure back to here again.

In these days, i found that my pace is very slow in my original place.
here are convenient for transport and system.
my eyesight is widen.
i realized that i am so small even outdated.
i have to improve myself always.

wait for me , please.
I will come out with a new & nice Jeslyn after some years.

无奈

每次和你搭不到线
最后搞到你很气愤,
我也很伤心。
在电脑前“流汗”,不愿让你看到。
我最不喜欢你那样说,
每次伤透我的心。
但你要知道,
我是爱你的
你是有你的执着,
我知道,
我怎样说都不能打破你的固定思维,你的安全空间
喉咙那儿还在抑制着失落。
我想,
未来的以后,
我们的想法会不会更不一样?
会不会慢慢蒙上隔膜?
像你和你妹妹一样。
我尝试尽量不要那样,
因为我已带着你给的一些思想,
将要迎向新生活,
慢慢进步

今天看报纸,
有一句话很深刻,
想不要钻牛角尖就不要对过去太执着。
对我,可能慢慢可以。
而你,永远不会懂这些道理。

请原谅我一直对你你所谓的批评,
因为我是多么的介意,我是多么想尝试让你想开一点
我再怎么不喜欢你的一些思想,
也要接受你。
因为,你永远是我最爱的人